Isn’t it amazing how God can change things, in a instant!
For the past week, I have been praying and praying for God to show me where I need to be. I’ve been asking for answers. Let’s just start from the beginning.
A late summer day in 2010, I would take walks around the lake we lived on. This was after Shane and I got back together. So, this day was no different than any other day. I remember like it was yesterday. I was turning the third turn on this road and I could see the back of our yard. All of a sudden, God spoke to me and said “Nurse, go to school to be a nurse.” I was like…okay…I guess I’m going to be a nurse. I called Shane, who was at the fire station, and said I have to go to school to be a nurse. He said, Okay, that’s great.” So, one thing lead to another and everything went very simple. In one month I was enrolled in college and was working toward my new goal of being a nurse.
Well, a year later, here I am. Just know getting into my core classes for a Health Science degree. Which up until this point I have been ecstatic.
Do you ever have that feeling where you feel down in your spirit that something isn’t right? I have. The beginning of this quarter has been weird. It has been emotionally and mentally draining. It seems like one thing after another has been coming against me.
I begin to pray. I begin to ask God “What is my purpose?” “Do I really belong in the medical field?” “Should I change majors?” Everything thing comes back to computers, computers. I have always enjoyed computers and have done great learning new stuff dealing with them. I just like computers. I love graphic design. Do I love helping people? Well, not really. (Brutally honest here!) I mean, I don’t mind helping you figure out a computer problem or designing a logo or what not. But, would I really be enthused to see a child battered and bloody after a car accident? No! Would I like being around sick people all day? No. Could I do it? Yes. Do I want to? No.
See, there is a difference in doing something you can do and doing something you like to do. I like computers. I like photography. I like writing.
I got my answer. Thank you Father for leading me and guiding me.
In conclusion, I have changed to a Computer Science Major. Woohoo!